Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Its juz A Game..

It says....

“Allow yourself a winter season for introspection, personal evaluation, contemplation and transformation. Then get back in the game."

She said....

"Whassup? i know we haven't spoken for a while I was thinking bout you and it kinda made me smile So many things to say and I'll put them in a letter
Thought it might be easier, the words might come out better
How's your mother? How's your little nephew? Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to

Wish i could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you


Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you

Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on there's a lot of feelings that remains since you've been gone I guess you thought that I would've it all behind me but it seems there's always something right there to remind me like a silly joke or something on the TV, boy it ain't easy when I hear our song I get that same old feeling

wish I could press rewind, turn back the hands of time and I shouldn't be telling you

Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you (you, still not over you)

Did you know I've kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet Oooh nooo.. tried to erase The way your kisses taste But some things a girl can never forget

Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon...

P.S I'm still not over you Still not over you, see I've tried to forget you

Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse

I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon...

P.S I'm still not over you ...."


He said.." let it go..."

Monday, September 04, 2006

I'm back..

Alright..i have no idea where would I start.. but I thought I might as well give it a shot..

Ok.. it been quite a while since I've been trying to heal the wounded soul..haha… ok.. it’s a mid-life crisis (as sarcastically described by my dearie kuzzin).. honestly, I just wonder how do they deal with it? Let's take the case of my beloved, loud, extremely indecipherable… totally out-of-this-world à 'Piza'..

At one time, she was torn apart between two totally wacko blokes..then fell into the phase of ' oh..we're just best friends now' (whatever.. talk-to-my-hand).. to the phase of 'he got someone!!! Waaaaaaaaaahhhh' to the phase of 'I've met two new guys..' and it all happen in less than a month. (Its an achievement saying that in one single breath)

It was just like having a bad patch and covering it up with some damn bloody good stitch..and there u go.. Viola!! Al-Presto… "And they lived happily ever after.." Though she didn’t get married yet… I bet she will if she isn't college right now…heh..

Things haven't been going quite right for me.. on the inside.. it was like tumultuous ride .. been bottling things up too much..to the point they got onto my sleep.. so as you can sense by now.. its wrecking me up.. . Well..it even got me on the outside.. physically.. - been putting on a few kilos…I'm having a war with my zits..and trust me they look like mini volcanoes at the verge of erupting (though not ready to burst as yet..) my hair's getting in a mess (but at least I got the itchy scalp problem under control- Thanx to Regane hair products - affordable & works wonders!!)

I know I'm vain..but unfortunately beauty comes with a price .. It needs tender loving care ..pruning.. cleaning..toning.. clearing 'potholes'... (I'm so gona squeeze that pimple out.. la lala… lala… )

Despite the emotional roller-coaster ride, strangely… I felt like 'home' or you would call 'getting back your old-self'. .. It’s a feeling where you're back to who you really are.. reading novels back in my room under my duvet, chocolates & your bottle of Evian by your side.. chatting online with god-knows-who (I found this 'TalkCity' chatroom ..well, I've forgotten how fun it was especially after that sticky-internet incident.).. hanging out at home doing practically nothing (except getting my work done - which reminds me that I've yet to complete my set of 'Proteins' lecture slides & notes) and yeah.. back to writing.. creative juices are on the flow.. and yes.. I feel like going shopping.. can't wait for Thursday to come (its gona be a gurls'- day- out' and yes..I'm looking forward to catch my heart throb - SRK's new movie).

Well.. been at home for too long.. more than 48 hours really.. I knew I need the fresh air.. and the vitamin D.. (well. No worries.. I'm heading to the reservoir tomorrow morning for a brisk walking session with my dear pal.. who's kind enough to entertain my nonsense.. ) Honestly, no one in the west would want to travel that far for some brisk walking exercise, surrounded by monkeys making-out or monkey families hanging out together or having to see giant monitor lizard sun- tanning in the open.. but hey.. living in a concrete jungle.. having to be in a real untouched natural landscapes - trust me, the serenity will just sweeps you off your feet.. J Plus… the morning breakfast at the nearby hawker centre will make you return for more…. Hahah.. so much for trying to lose off the extra kilos..

Since it is a 1 week school term holiday… and I deserve a good break.. I've decided not to go to school or to have any extra lessons for my dear kids at school… but they better complete the holiday assignments by the time school term starts.. hehe..
Hmmm… I would be seen as a complete slacker (caught not doing any work.. who says I'm not??!!!) So, I've decided to join my kids in the crystal making session this coming Wednesday.

Did I tell you that we're taking part in a competition? It's like a fantasy come true…(ok, I'm nuts..but come on.. I'm a science teacher.. what do you expect?? Paris Hilton??)

I remember having to walk along the office alley at the NUS Chemistry Department, where they had all the crystals displayed. I've always been intrigued by how they were made…the colours, the shine, the size, the precision, my goodness… despite the fact one is not able to show it off on a necklace or a ring or your dangling ear-rings.. but trust me.. these wonderful crystals got me dazzled… I've always wanted to know how do they make all these crystals… Well… now, I can answer every single question that I used to ask myself… from the 'making of a saturated solution, getting the seed crystals.. the tying .. growing it'..phewww....

Trust me it isn't as simple as it looks… we even broke a 1 litre glass beaker along the process of getting and making the correct crystal.. and did anyone tell you that crystal making is damn expensive? A bottle of 1 kg of chrome alum cost around 300 bucks (or even more.. and this is one of the lowest grade quality in the market..)!!! And mind you…we used more than 5 kg this time… heh.. Well…though we may not win at the end of it.. but what the heck.. we had fun.. didn't we guys?

So much about crystals.. I even got back into the mood of joining our family gatherings… Upon my request…my dearest aunt had organised a family gathering last Saturday - cum- a mini birthday party for my little cousin.

Menu-of-the-day à Seoul garden.

Yeah… you heard me right… so we had a spread of fresh seafood on the 3 metres long table… and your hot plate.. and yes.. we even had sushi's ..homemade sushi.. my mum even tried her hands at making it.. trust me.. it looks like your typical chinese popiah..

It was great having everyone around.. and only then I realised how much my cousins have grown up.. nana was looking more and more stunning.. mira had definitely grown into this young funky easy going gal.. my little obnoxious youngest cousin started to grow her hair long.. but as cheeky as ever.. (I guess certain things don't change ..) and the rest are just growing up to be pretty and handsome.. heh.. well, it makes feel old to be among them... what the heck.. age are just numbers..

The family gathering wouldn’t be complete if there weren't any games or 'mini fireworks' session. But, the mini fireworks session didn't quite work well.., as the newly employed domestic helper had placed the 'fireworks sticks' in the refrigerator.. thinking that they were chocolate sticks.. hmm.. I just wonder if the chocolates sold in her country were as long as those… heh.. (Come to think of it..Pocky chocolates sticks do look like it…hehe..) So the fireworks display turned into a mass burning session… it got so dangerous that only my uncle was the one handling it..

Well...so much for that… we even got into the routine of watching great Thailand horror movies.. There's just something about these Thai horror movies... they are the best in the world.. the plot, the acting.. the whole sequence of it.. its not like your peek-a-boo..or sadako coming out of the well.. it was a 'meaningful' and not sense-less ghost movie.. and it’s the best form of family - entertainment.. (even though you end up screaming at the top of your lungs.. its fun when everyone is doing it also..hehe.. or comforting your little cousin that its only a movie.. and not for real ghost..) Ohh..how much I love my family.. :-)