Love Died in Ooty - Expect the Unexpected

Excerpts taken from diary
Location: Ooty, 2nd day (early june)
Time: 4 am, weather: damn freezing cold..
Situation: Surrounded by group members (prying hard to get to know my personal life better)

Dear Diary,

Today I was being questioned by the members of my group of my own personal life stories. It all started by a casual talk.. however somehow it managed to stir its focus to me. BAD..

well, sincerely speaking.. I prefer to keep the sh*t to myself.. but not to these guys..

Irritating as it is, to a small extent it was fun..only to the point they start to cross the boundaries.. (its meant to be joke.. yah.. but its my personal life.. didnt i give clear vibes stating that Im not interested to discuss this further..????!!)

So, much for trying to have a nice quiet night on my own.. (something unachievable if you're living in a small house filled with 24 other rowdy human beings).

U bet it was damn hard for me to change the topic or to fan off the fire of excitement in their eyes.. it was similiarly hard for me to open up to them as i believe :-
1) they dun deserve to know about my life.. (mind your own business will ya??)
2) its the past and we should move on.. (its been 6 years and im still on the path of trying to move on.. )

I dun blame the guys for being inquisitive (only that they were doing it for the wrong reasons & wrong situation) but sometimes, there are just certain things which are meant to be kept to yourself & your trusted close pals..

Well.. to me I don't choose to be single neither i am against relationships. Its just that I have yet to come across someone who appreciates me (flaws & frills all), not someone perfect but someone who compliments me. well..saying this to them would never make sense.. (they're even more screwed up than me when it comes to love life, trust me.. my best pal can vouch for that u bet!) They claimed that they wanted to help me.. when they can't even help themselves..

If only i could tell them that its more than just the face value.. it is the heart & sincerity of it.. never selfish.. putting aside the ego & pride.. My purpose of coming here on this expedition was to help the kids here as much as possible.. seriously speaking, i had no intentions of bringing in any personal agendas into work situation.. not with them at least..

I even had an insensitive toad proclaiming his love to me thee at 2 am in the morning.. wat a damn joke?? @!!&%&@#$#@^&^ getting that from someone who doesn't even understand what it means to love someone.. I give up on these people..

Suddenly, i felt as though my personal love life was a joke.. haiz..

well.. i guess i just have to go with the flow.. and blend in with these people for now.. relax.. cool... they are just a bunch of kids ok.. its just a joke.. Smiles.. :) Now i need my hot tea..